Talk to Self

I know that you can't forget him...
I know that you'll smile every time you remember some memories of him...
I know that he is exist in your mind, even not only in your conscious mind...
I know that you have many dreams of him when you sleep...
I know that every time you listen to the nasheed, you'll remember him...
I know that every time you remember your desire to play guitar, you'll remember him...
I know that...

He's all over you...
Even now, when he is far away from you, his shadow still around you...
You won't call this thing as an annoying problem, because you enjoy it...
But, you can't call this thing as a happy moment either, because you suffer on it...

I know that you know that you should not think of him that much...
Because I know that you know that he won't think of you on the same way as you do...
I know that you still keep a hope deep in your heart for him...
I know that you still call him as your star, estrella...
I know that you usually remind your self to shine your own light every time you want to get his attention, remind your self to be a star like him
I know that you usually try to have the same spirit as he does...
I know that you do want to have the same activities, maturity, friendliness, and all of his good personality...

Now, I tell you...
You will go nowhere if you still just remember him...
Life must go on!!!
I don't ask you to forget him, because I know it will happen only if you get an amnesia...
I just ask you to be a professional...
You must do all your duty as a daughter, student, friend, and the most important as a servant of Allah...
You may keep the memories of him in your mind and heart...
But do not use the memories to kill your life...
You should run to shine your own light...
You want to be mature, right???
So, stand up and run!!!
Do not have a long day dream on your short life!!!
It is childish!!!
Come on!!!
As long as you live in this world, I believe, that you can be an extraordinary person...